So this is the weekend we celebrate moms....and yet I have a heavy heart for my "stranger friend" KW and what her family is having to go through that makes it hard for me to think about my own life as a mom. I cannot imagine putting a child to rest this weekend (or any other, for that matter). I am restless for them all and the rawness of my pain for someone I never even met astonishes me....
I lost a baby on my very first Mother's Day weekend almost 6 years ago....but for me it was in the wee stages of pregnancy and I had not seen the child grow, love, laugh, live, bond with it or have it know me as mom. So the hurt was brief and bearable. For the family of KW, I'm sure it cannot be the same...it must feel endless and unfathomable and I ache for them all. It is easy to toss off platitudes of comfort like "she is at peace" etc. for a family who feels nothing akin to peace at the loss of a child they never had time to prepare for. Robbed, cheated, angry, lost, empty, heartbroken....so many other words I know they must be feeling.
And so, this weekend I shall pray, reflect, renew and revive my role as mom to my children....to appreciate more fully that precious gift. And I shall grieve a child I never knew that belonged to a family I never met. And be reminded, yet again, that living life off the computer is the MOST important thing I can do for my family.....peace and love to all who enter.
1 comment:
It will be with them forever, the ache doesnt go away but it does lesson just alittle
hugs and butterfly kisses
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