- I'm pissed at so many things right now and it is not a good state of mind for me (or my kids).
- I don't want to leave but I don't want to stay either.
- I wish this was all behind me so I could feel like I'm going forward again.
- Why do I have to give up my dog too? It just isn't fair...none of it is.
- I need to cry some more but I feel like I don't have the time.
- I think my weight loss got derailed in all this mess and that is just one more thing that is pissing me off.
- Hard work gets you nothing more than more hard work.
- I want my happy ending. I need it.
- My kids are the best thing that have ever happened to me.
- I'm scared to be a single parent.
- All my plans seem not to matter anymore...now I just have to make new ones all over again.
- I know I'm feeling sorry for myself but I'm allowing it this time.
- Every day I just feel like I'm knocked over before I can even get up.
- I thought he would love me forever. I thought he knew me and loved me exactly the way I was. I thought I finally found someone who accepted all my flaws and loved me anyway. Maybe that man doesn't exist for me.
- My life doesn't really belong to me anymore...it's all for the kids now but I have no one (man) to share that with. That makes me so unbearably sad.
- Of course I am grateful for my family....mom and dad thank you so much again for always being there.
- I want my mommy......
- I hate the way I feel and my head hurts all the time (and my heart).
- I can't get my head around why this is all happening and don't think it will ever make sense to me.
- Just when I think I have a handle on things, the sadness settles back in and here I am typing and crying about it all.
- Mom, I know this is weird but it helps me. My deepest thoughts are offline. This is only scratching the surface.
- I don't want to think about it all but I can't help it.
- I wish I didn't have to teach tomorrow because my heart is not in it right now. My patience level right now sucks.
- I AM SO MAD I COULD SCREAM!!!!!
I hope I'm more tired now. But I'm sure as soon as I lay down it will start right up again. I stay awake until I pass out pretty much. Sorry, this wasn't much fun for me either....
Thanks for listening.
3 comments:
sweetie...cry scream and let it all out. I am so sorry you have to go thru this right now...but you are right....you are allowed to be sad, mad, and exhausted. let yourself be! here if you need me...and remember when things get the toughest just look into your little ones beautiful eyes and smile MAMA....YOU can do this!
(ps speaking as someone who is once again waking up at 2am .... ARGH!!!!!!!!!! (my loony scream!)
it's a grieving process susan - and you need to go through all the stages of grieving....you are certainly allowed to be mad, cry, feel sorry for yourself. there will be a time to push yourself - but you are going through a process right now....allow yourself to feel it.
I appreciate your raw honesty in how you feel at the moment. I think we all have been here at one level or another. Most can totally relate! I remember laying awake at night, and then wondering how I ever fell asleep! I totally agree with Jyl!!!
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