....it's over. Received notification that my marital status will be terminated on November 13th. Poof! In less time than it took for him to court me, date, fall in love and get engaged, our marriage of nearly 9 years will be dissolved. Forget that there are 2 beautiful children in the middle of all this carnage who still have nightmares about daddy and missing the only home they have ever known. Forget that there were things that weren't perfect, but certainly nothing that couldn't have been resolved. Forget that there was never a CHOICE for me or the kids, everything was just dictated to us. Counseling? Nope. Therapy? Nope. Work it out and keep our family intact? Nope. Listen to your kids telling you they don't want mommy and daddy to break up, and daddy can't you just stay with mommy so we don't have to leave? Nope.
Only choice I got to make (if you can call it that) was where I wanted us to live. Couldn't stay in CA....too expensive and I had no WORK! Still don't....
Not sure how to feel about all this. It is still terribly sad to me. It all seemed to happen so fast. My kids are for the most part doing well, but they (like me) still have their moments, and I'm sure there will be many more to come in the days and years ahead.
So much I could post here about what I believe contributed to the demise of our marriage. But I won't. I will merely say this....the grass is always greener when a woman is involved. But you still gotta mow the lawn eventually....
10 years ago
2 comments:
hang in there, susan...
i'm thinking of you.
xo
You were smart to move closer to family. We begged our daughter Kim to move back here. Only now, 11 years later has she moved back. He had a girlfriend, she never suspected. She wanted to keep it friendly, let his lawyer handle it all. Total mistake. He wanted no counseling. We think he had already planned this, just waited for a minor argument so he could walk out. From the first day of the marriage I worried because this was his second marriage. And I bet this third marriage will not be his last.
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